happy halloween!!
I have not blog for a very long time due to laziness. Lol.
I am back in NYP, doing my advance diploma in orthopaedic. I am into the 3rd week of school, still enjoying and coping. Stress already set in with all the research and psychosocial assignments. Still searching for articles.. =((
Being in school make me have more time to rest my feet and catch up on the movies I missed..Very happy!!
At times, there is still unhappiness. I don’t know there are so many selfish people around us. It is not that I don’t want to share. Do u see the problem is: in the first place, u didn’t even offer to share!!! I seriously want not to talk to u anymore…
Of course, I kind of miss work.. I am used to working!! hahaha.. School is good too, getting to know all my classmates and gossiping, complaining about our hospitals and the drs!!!! We compared our institutions and discovered that sgh is slighty better.
… going to catch a movie, Coraline.
Fast moving lane.
Thing has been changing too fast for me to keep up. Friends leaving, new people arriving..
Changes. I am still in the same place, waiting for something to happen.
Sigh.. I miss my friends.
I miss u even if you are not around. Some events in our life is not so easily forgotten. Why?
Why is it so difficult?
No answer to that.
RIB- rest in bed. (Part I)
I had an fall yesterday at East Coast Park. =( Big Thank You to all my unsung heroes and guardian angels…
Went cycling with my friends from east coast to changi beach. It was a beautiful day. Very tired.. and has one insignificant mosquito bite. It was quite an uneventful ride, was thinking that: Hey! I didnt even fall today.
All my friends should know that I am super prone to falling, accidents and meeting weird people. Ok, this time I fell at the slope near the hawker centre- which is where I always fall without fail. =(
I slowed down seeing the down slope was approaching. Seeing a group of people standing at a corner, I tried to avoid them by moving to my right. Then there was this guy on bicycle on my right, I tried to avoid him but don’t know why he still knock into me. So I went flying off the bicycle and into the air..
I can’t remember how I ‘fly’ or how I landed. Everything was in a blur…
That bloody group of people who blocked the way went riding off and laughing at my mishap.. IDIOTS! I know this from Mummy Neo sister, Sijie.
So Rude!!!! Then Mummy Neo was about maybe 500m? away from me and was hoping it was not me. But unfortunately, it was ME! (I am just that unlucky.)
A indian guy helped up and pick up the bicyle. BIG THANK YOU. Then the chinese guy who I collided with, came over and ask how was I and apologized. I don’t know whether he fell, everything was way too messy.
Immediately PN and WZ came to my rescue cus they were cycling behind me. I quickly poured water on my abrasions..
I reassured him that I was ok as I didn’t feel any pain and only saw abrasions on my right arm and knee. I refused his offer of going to see a doctor and everything. I send him away then. — I forgot to tell him to buy me a new pair of flip-flops!!!!! Mine are totally ruined… =P
Only when he left then I realised how swollen my left 2nd toe was and a little out of shape(i think) and the sole of my foot has a big cut.. I sat down on the ground and started throwing tantrums and crying. And I kept whining “my toe is broken”, “my toe has a fracture.” Nobody was able to stop me..
Then after, I couldn’t ride the bicycle anymore.. I had to push it all the way back to the bicycle rental shop, with Mummy Neo and SJaccompanying me. PN and WZ rode back first and came back with a 2-rider bicycle and PN actually ferry me all the way back to Macdonalds..
And we had macdonalds for dinner.. Yea with my bleeding abrasions and swollen toe. Seeing how swollen my toe is, I decided to go CGH DEM for a XR. Obviously we took a cab there, PN went with me. Mummy Neo and SJ went home cus I thought of the very strict checks at the hospital. swine flu. I want to apologize to KY. He went all the way to ECP for dinner(macdonalds) and went home after that cus I need to go to the hospital. We will catch up next time.
to be continued…
At a point… I feel lost.
Goodbye and hope you are feeling much more better over there. If the accessibility of medical services is better, maybe you will be still around. Ambulance refuse to send u to the hospital- may they be cursed.
I feel lost. The only thing I could do is to help mummy book bus tickets.
I am sorry I couldn’t see you after you were sick, I should have taken time off work. The last time I saw you was during CNY. You were still doing well. I am sorry now for not attending the funeral.
Life is really unpredictable.
Though we were not really close, I hope you are relief from all the pain you were suffering from.
Take Care.
We do love and care about you.
Not possible at all
Like what a friend of mine have said, why do I care so much. If this person means nothing to me, no matter what this person say should not affect me!
It is kind ofaffecting right now. My mind just keep replaying the whole incident. argh!
Sorry if I made u angry or said something inappropriate. I was not trying to be funny.That was the first thing that came to my mind. After some reflection. Yea, it is kind of stupid to say that!
I am not that knowledgeable, I do make a effort to learn. I did not lie to you. I really did try my best.
I don’t know whether you have any expectations from me. I apologise if I do not meet them. But that is who I am.
Still want to express my gratitude. I learnt something today. And I hope you will nv read this, which I think you will not. 
Let’s wait to see how things turn out.
Till I get enough sleep,
the girl who is still trying her best.
Too much excuses..
I should stop thinking of reasons and excuses. I am tired. And stupid.
Eating lots of ice cream. I am a idiot. Truly and thoroughly a idiot.
Hate the whole world….
Till I stop eating ice cream.
P.S. Hate all the mask wearing!!!!
When it hurts…
How do we ever learn to stop hurting ourselves?
We fall. We pick ourselves up. We learn a lesson. Maybe we won’t fall the next time.
But…
When someone repeatedly hurts us. Why don’t we learn a lesson and stop it from happening?
We can’t. We yearn to see that someone so badly even if it means we may never recover from all these hurting.
We are all crazy people. Very crazy.
We can only hope for the hurting to stop.
It seems we have no control what so ever over our own hearts. Condition can change without warning. Romance can make the heart pound just like panic can. And panic can make it stop cold in your chest. It’s no wonder doctors spend so much time to keep the heart stable, to keep it slow, steady, regular to stop the heart from pounding out of your chest from the dread of something terrible or the anticipation or something else entirely.
– Meredith Grey. Grey’s Anatomy
