A big shoutout!

I am not happy. No matter how many times I tell myself I will be fine. I know I am not. I don’t know how long my sanity can maintain.

I really don’t know. I know this is not the place for me, I know. And before anyone of u open your mouth to criticise others have no standards. You know what I think, you guys don’t even have standards!

I hate her! Scolding us for no reason is unethical, u bitch! who gave u the right? You said we all work for the organisation, doesn’t that make us colleagues? Or did u just happen to forget that fact at that particular time?

7am. A nice beautiful day and u just had to raise your voice. You lose all your marks and class within a second. Pui.

Perhaps I shouldn’t even get angry at these lowly class people.

still as crazy as ever.

had a very nice dinner earlier on at Marriott just now with Eiks and Clarice. Still feel very bad to have Eiks friend pay for our dinner, though she has staff discount!! -_-

The food was generally quite tasty, can’t pick one I love most. Maybe the tea? Hehehe

2 months after completing my course, working in a different department now. I don’t see as much fracture patients anymore. I miss my old workplace, my colleagues. They are a batch of people I love. And I treat my old workplace for a 2nd home. Not like now.

It is not that I am not happy to work here. It is that I am not as cheerful as before and I feel the unfairness in this place.

1. Workload is like shit and nobody bothers.
2. Not enough staff- work as usual. Superior don’t bother to give us extra staff.
3. Neglected. I don’t think that woman even remembers my or our name, she only remembers to ask us to do research. Do research, so she will have something to show off!! Fuck off!
4. Super bias, like we are blind. – story for another day.

I really don’t know if  it is I am still adapting or it is I can’t accept or I can’t be bothered. I am thinking is the latter. I am tired. Tired of my job, because of this place.

Who says we earn a lot? NO! It is not even enough. We put ourselves down in this job, bend ourselves to suit people, pacify people!! So who cares about us???

Fuck my job!!! I am tired!!

Exams period

 A new home. Perhaps.

 

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I can’t concentrate to study so I am blogging. I hope to revive this blog! Hahaha!

Advanced diploma course had been a very fruitful and fun time for me, I met interesting people in my course. Whom I guess these friends can last forever! Of course, I still get to meet those people I can’t get along with. This is life, what can I say…

I seen true colours of my own friends, scary indeed. I gained a lot, I know who care about me and who wont bother if I die… Anyways all these is not important..

What is most important is I am going back to work soon!!! Yea!! I quite look forward to it cus a bit sick of school already.. Especially attachments, we get all these people telling us weird things, ordering us around.. Urgh!!! Mad disgusting!!! And we see how other hospitals work too… SUper Duper Mad Disgusting!!!! Won’t even think of myself admitting there…

And these people still think they are so great, *bleah*

Hohoho!! I going to go start studying again!!

=))

In school and in near-depression

I dont understand some people.. To save their own asses, they stoop low. LOW!!

She is iritating.. freaking so!

What a way to start a week.. seen two fashion disaster! So upset why some people allow hairdresser to do this kind of thing to their hair?? =/

Lost my appetite instantly when I saw.. Need to show my graditude for helping me lose weight..

Having presentation and exams in 2 days… busy busy

That day, it felt weird.

I felt lost that day..

Going home alone, having dinner alone…… Though I look and maybe am independent, there are times I am really afraid of the loneliness, the darkness. But what do everyone know..

It feels lonely to buy takeaway then slowly take a bus home, with nobody to share dinner with. Everyday I go home to have dinner with my parents. Now they go on holiday, it feels weird. Weird. I relied on my mum too much. I miss her lah!

If someone ask if I am having regrets and am jealous? I would say none of that. However, sometimes I envy others. Really.

The uncle gave me 2 spoons. It reminds me that I am eating alone..

ok! I am too depressed… Sigh

2009 and 2010!!

Thinking of my new resolutions and reviewing the past year.. Seems like 2009 I didn’t stick to my resolutions, guess I forget as the months go by.. The most important this year I guess is my driving license and advanced dip..

Hope my friends and I all have a great 2010!!! =))

Happy New Year!!!

 2009 Resolutions:

1. Neat and tidy room.- carry on to 2010
2. Take regular meals and have no gastric pain.
3. Improve my work knowledge.  – in advanced diploma now…
4. Less shopping, save more MONEY!! –> Super Ultra Difficult. – unable to achieve!! how??!!
5. Better time management. – able to meet my friends more. – I am a super bad friend… neglect lots of friends.. =((
6. Take good care of my health. -had a accident-prone 2009. Hope 2010 will be better
7. Stop sighing!!!!! Less moody~
8. Blog more. – Lol joke of the year!!
9. Read more books and watch more movies!!! (how to save money like tt???)
10. Make decisions that might change my life. I guess I did.

2010 Resolutions:

1. Neat and tidy room.
2. Graduated from Advanced Dip successfully. KIV degree in 2011
3. SAVE MONEY!!! Less shopping!!!!
4. No more falling down and accidents this year!! Please… (I have a crooked toe already)
5. Eat less and exercise more!!!! Be healthy..
6. Blackberry? Chanel earrings?
7. Boyfriend!!??
8. Better time management again!! More time with friends and family!!!
9. Travel… to wherever I can…
10. How can I forget?? DRIVING license!!!

happy halloween!!

I have not blog for a very long time due to laziness. Lol.

I am back in NYP, doing my advance diploma in orthopaedic. I am into the 3rd week of school, still enjoying and coping. Stress already set in with all the research and psychosocial assignments. Still searching for articles.. =((

Being in school make me have more time to rest my feet and catch up on the movies I missed..Very happy!!

At times, there is still unhappiness. I don’t know there are so many selfish people around us. It is not that I don’t want to share. Do u see the problem is: in the first place, u didn’t even offer to share!!! I seriously want not to talk to u anymore…

Of course, I kind of miss work.. I am used to working!! hahaha.. School is good too, getting to know all my classmates and gossiping, complaining about our hospitals and the drs!!!! We compared our institutions and discovered that sgh is slighty better.

… going to catch a movie, Coraline.

Fast moving lane.

Thing has been changing too fast for me to keep up. Friends leaving, new people arriving..

Changes. I am still in the same place, waiting for something to happen.

Sigh.. I miss my friends.

I miss u even if you are not around. Some events in our life is not so easily forgotten. Why?

Why is it so difficult?

No answer to that.

RIB- rest in bed. (Part I)

I had an fall yesterday at East Coast Park. =( Big Thank You to all my unsung heroes and guardian angels…

Went cycling with my friends from east coast to changi beach. It was a beautiful day. Very tired.. and has one insignificant mosquito bite. It was quite an uneventful ride, was thinking that: Hey! I didnt even fall today.

All my friends should know that I am super prone to falling, accidents and meeting weird people. Ok, this time I fell at the slope near the hawker centre- which is where I always fall without fail. =(

I slowed down seeing the down slope was approaching. Seeing a group of people standing at a corner, I tried to avoid them by moving to my right. Then there was this guy on bicycle on my right, I tried to avoid him but don’t know why he still knock into me. So I went flying off the bicycle and into the air..

I can’t remember how I ‘fly’ or how I landed. Everything was in a blur…

That bloody group of people who blocked the way went riding off and laughing at my mishap.. IDIOTS! I know this from Mummy Neo sister, Sijie.

So Rude!!!! Then Mummy Neo was about maybe 500m? away from me and was hoping it was not me. But unfortunately, it was ME! (I am just that unlucky.)

A indian guy helped up and pick up the bicyle. BIG THANK YOU. Then the chinese guy who I collided with, came over and ask how was I and apologized. I don’t know whether he fell, everything was way too messy.

Immediately PN and WZ came to my rescue cus they were cycling behind me. I quickly poured water on my abrasions..

I reassured him that I was ok as I didn’t feel any pain and only saw abrasions on my right arm and knee. I refused his offer of going to see a doctor and everything. I send him away then. — I forgot to tell him to buy me a new pair of flip-flops!!!!! Mine are totally ruined… =P

Only when he left then I realised how swollen my left 2nd toe was and a little out of shape(i think) and the sole of my foot has a big cut.. I sat down on the ground and started throwing tantrums and crying. And I kept whining “my toe is broken”, “my toe has a fracture.” Nobody was able to stop me..

Then after, I couldn’t ride the bicycle anymore.. I had to push it all the way back to the bicycle rental shop, with Mummy Neo and SJaccompanying me. PN and WZ rode back first and came back with a 2-rider bicycle and PN actually ferry me all the way back to Macdonalds..

And we had macdonalds for dinner.. Yea with my bleeding abrasions and swollen toe. Seeing how swollen my toe is, I decided to go CGH DEM for a XR. Obviously we took a cab there, PN went with me. Mummy Neo and SJ went home cus I thought of the very strict checks at the hospital. swine flu. I want to apologize to KY. He went all the way to ECP for dinner(macdonalds) and went home after that cus I need to go to the hospital. We will catch up next time.

to be continued…