That. Crazy. Girl.

I have not visited the cinemas for like in like 7 months. OMG. Am I busy or what. I remember I am still a student. Shouldnt we have a lot of free time on hand to watch movies, shop, ……

I dont care I am going to spend my 1 and 1/2 month holiday fully.

1. Driving lesson
2. Shopping
3. Watching movies
4. Eating
5. High tea (if someone go with me)

3 more days. I perserve. All bad people go away. *prays hard* Just yesterday I discovered when I was talking to another SN in the ward, that 2 people that bullied me are devils. OK!   DEVILS.

Bullying doesnt only happen in schools to kids. Adults in their workplace are also being bullied by colleagues. But nobody will do anything to help them. They think adults should be able to handle it themselves better than the kids.

Adults doesnt necessary can handle all the bullying. I personally think that bullying in the workplace is 100 times worse than those that happen in school.

I think newspapers should stop making a big deal out of bullying in school. Although the kids may be so humiliated, think about adults not being to tell anyone about the bullying and keep it inside them.

They may EXPLODE one day!!!!!!! They may even get psychological problem.

Kids that are bullied can make a big Hoo-ha. Adults? They cant make a big scene. Cant really talk to anyone at their workplace. Other colleagues may be plotting against u too. You cant tell your NM, she may be biased towards the bully or what. Worse. She may think you are trying to create trouble.

When they tell it to their family or close friends, can they really understand their anguish? I bet they cant. They will just tell you. “It is ok! I understand there is workplace politics, it is really pressurized. You have to know how to swallow the anger.” So…does it solve the problem? Does your colleagues stop bullying you?

[We have to all learn from Zoe Tay: I swallow.]

No! No! No! You may feel better for a day or two. Nothing is solved.

Supervisors should not only overlook the workplace. They should take good care of their people as well. Mental and physical.

Be more concerned about your colleagues. Appreciate them. Respect them. Make sure they are fine. Take time to talk to them.

The best is to wish for is these bullys disappear. In what way? I dont know. The worse, the better!!! Muhaha!

That’s all for now. Till then.

I need a holiday badly!! Super stressed up with my current posting. I am happy but also sad at times. I think my hormones are going amok. 

I can cry over little things. After a while, I will be laughing. Oh no! Am I getting bipolar??

To earn a salary which is not consider much, is really hard work. These are the following reasons why it is hard work:

1. Workplace politics.
2. Learning how to be on good terms with everyone.
3. Ignoring people who are not nice and sarcastic. Smile at them
4. Learning to turn a blind eye to people you know that doesnt like you.
5. Trying to perform well.
6. Coordinating patient care. (they can be difficult at times)

And the list goes on… Too much to be listed down. As I am someone who is passive to mingle with people. Workplace politics is really a chore for me. I may be curt and rude at times without knowing it. Or I can take people’s comments too hard.

I know all these are bad points. I should change. I am already trying my best to mingle with people. Difficult. I am someone who really take time to warm up to someone. Esp when that person is someone who is unapproachable. Sometimes I look too quiet that people really think I dont talk. Lolx!

I am quite talkative. Really.

Anyway there is someone I really hate in the ward. I am proud of myself today. I manage to ignore her comment today. She is really rude and sarcastic. U think u are so great? Always go around finding other people mistakes.

What can we do if the pt is violent? And put his legs out of the bedrails the minute we put his legs back into the bed???? We are not his private care nurse who can be by his side every min loh. U think we are so free to adjust his position every min ar??? Why not u stay there?

Anyway I wanted to remind her not to call me student. I am not your student. Is that ok with you?

Seriously I hate her guts.

P.S. I am going to ignore all the idiotic people!!!!!!!!

7 more days…. Yeah! I am going to hold on…. I promise I wont make any more mistakes. I am going to study hard!!!! Going to become a brain expert!!!!!

My preceptor is very good to me, teaching me lots of stuff. I am pms-ing these days, almost crying over every little matter. haha!

Find that time is flying. This attachment goona be over soon. Can say that I will miss my student nurse uniform. lolx. Wearing a SN uniform is stressed!!!!!!! So much responsibilites. And I am still kind of have the fear of talking to drs. Some of them really have a bad attitude!

Jobless no more. I have been offered a job at somewhere I preferred. Yeah! Finally. I was have sleepless nights, thinking I am going be become a bummer . Not saying that bummer is no good. Just that not working make my brain rusty and my muscles flaccid. Lolx.

There are times I love to be a bummer. But I still love to have a job.

Job = Money = Shopping = Happiness *grins*

Going to make full use of my 6 weeks rest before starting work at the hospital. Havent decide what to do during these 6 weeks. Hmm…. Chalet with my friends. confirm.

As for other programs… I will know when the times come. Haha! Of cus have to meet up with pik pik for retail therapy. Haha! And not forgetting cycling, though I am lazy these days. Suntanning too.

Hohoho! I am such a happy girl these days. I want to forget about all the unhappiness.

Completed my night shift needed for my PRCP posting last week. Wanted to blog earlier, but night shift taken all my energy away. lolx.

I want to kill all those people that told me night shift is scary and dark. And all those ghost stories. Bullshit. The hospital is more well lit than your home. OK? Besides, you are so busy to think about any of those nonsense.

Night shift is not scary and dark at all. It is just so bloody tiring. And mentally taxing, cus some demented patients get more demented at night. As if they are possessed. And not enough staff to handle them.

Anyway I quite enjoy my night shift. Lots of funny things happen. I think I am practically disturbing the patients sleeping time. I slam the drawer. Accidentally. A metal drawer somemore.

Then I drop a box on the floor.

Bang. Bang. Luckily they dont have heart problem. Haha! Patients should be resting and recuperating in the hospital. But with a nurse like me, always slamming drawers and dropping things. They may not get enough rest.

After that incident, I avoid walking thru the carparks. Unless I am too lazy. Which is like almost everyday.Lolz!!!

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I was on the phone with Jasmine yesterday. Yes. Our late-night chat again. She finalised her job at KKH already. I am still waiting for my interview at SGH. I am so used to SGH, difficult to work anywhere else.

Anyway we were planning to dine at Equinox at Swissotel!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The restaurant at dunno how many levels. Just very high up. The date is the day of graduation ceremony which is in July. That is like so far away. But we got to save anyway, expensive leh. 

I am just so looking forward to it. I wanted to go there not cus of the food. I just want the night view from so high up. Haha!  

Till then~  

What do you expect from a nurse? Compassion. Caring. Gentle. Nice. Good listener. Patient.

Her skills must be good too. Isnt it?

I am doing my PRCP attachment now. – which means we have to pass this posting in order to graduate. And I hope I pass with flying colours. Though it is difficult.

(I have not been updating my blog, cus my linksys router spoilt. Till today, nothing is done yet.)

Gonna work weekends now. To follow our preceptor, this is to facilitate our learning better. I dont know. I think I will feel weird working on weekends. Cus it nv happen in my attachment life before.

Thanks to some people lah! Anyway we also have to sign a agreement form lah. So I chose to work on weekends, it is better to learn from the same person. Cus everyone got different way of doing things. May get confused.

Anyway I also nv see how is the ward on weekends. So, this is a chance. Haha! If kanna afternoon shift, then siao already loh. Super no life!!!!!!!

The staff in the ward are nice to me. I learnt a lot from them, but I think I am still a little blur. Must try harder next week. I want to push myself to the fullest and learn as much as I can.

Lucky I am the only student in the cubicle, so I can learn lots of stuff. Also lucky that I dont have some turtle in my ward to stand in my way. I feel sorry for you, Neo. My heart feels for you, really. Lolx

Anyway I already applied for a job at SGH. Hope everything goes well. Bless me.

Going to my assigned ward tml. So excited cus I nv been to that ward, and I nv hear any bad stuff about the ward. Yea~ Serene is in a ward that the CI got attitude. Congrats to her!!! *evil laughter* Anyway it is not like the CI is going to grade us. It is our preceptor. Hope we all can get very good preceptor who is very willing to teach. keep my fingers crossed.

My stupid motorola phone is giving me problem again. I am going to change le!!! Super angry. Then everytime go service, some of my data will be deleted. what’s that? This is the 1st and last time I will be using motorola. Wont advise anyone to go buy motorola phones.

Today is the last day of our orientation program. As mentioned in the previous post, we need to do a “evaluation” to give our feedback. Let me tell u, we shouldnt even do the feedback. Whatever feedback  that was not pleasant to their ears were throw back at us. WTF!!!!!!!

One feedback that was read out: The venue was like old and the seats are uncomfortable. Renovate!!!

The ans we got: U think renovation very cheap ar. Need money.  of cus you all say easy lah.

I was like: the venue is use everytime, just make it more comfortable for everyone lah! We sit there for consecutive 4 hrs leh. On wooden bench. wa lau!!! my buttock damn damn pain loh.

2nd feedback: (I think it is by me) Handouts should be given as lesson is difficult to follow. And slides are not easy to be seen.

Ans I got: As I said in the beginning, this 3 day program is FREE for all of u. So where we get the money to print handouts for so many people?

As you all see, everything is about money!!!!! Kaox….. no handouts, how to concentrate on lesson when the words are so small and UNREADABLE on the slides!!!!!!!! Everyone will fall asleep loh if the slides are unattractive!!!

Forget it. The program is over and they dont take in our feedback. Fine. I will not care about giving my feedback seriously the next time round.

The best thing was: we got this pocket guide thingy, which I believe would help us greatly our PRCP and work in the future. Almost everything thing we need to know is inside there. Thanks to the Nursing Director of Outram Campus: Mdm Lim Swee Hia. So nice of her!!!!!

Wishing all my friends and all Yr3 students good luck in their PRCP. And of cus in their future!!!!!

You have control!!!! (quoted frm Takuya Kimura’s serial Good Luck!)

PRCP at SGH. Which ward? I cant say. But I nv been to this ward before, so I am quite looking forward to it. Today is tuesday, everyone is getting use to their ward and starting their work.

Where am I? Path. Lab lecture theatre undergoing the devil orientation program. Haha~ JK. 

It is quite helpful. some of it. I was pratically sleeping and waking thru the whole day. I felt some of the lessons was redundant. It is not like we never been nag before at the same thing. And we are ask to fill in some evaluation form tml, to evaluate how we find the program. Hmm…. and if we say that anything is partially met. We have to be interviewed by the CI.

Gosh! Who is going to tell the truth?? Not me. I dont wanna be interview or get delay going home. I am just going to fill in slip-slop. I dont care!!! 

They are also changing the format of the new documentation. And we have to learn the new format, but I totally fell asleep during that part. Haha! I am going catch up when I am in the ward.

Anyway, we went to Chinatown Temp. Hawker Centre to have lunch. Super near the Path. Lab!!!!! I had my fav ikan bilis yong tau hoo today!!! I long long time nv eat le. I queue for like 15 mins loh, but I think it is quite fast. Then I ate the ngo hiang LPN bought and ate the black sesame dessert.

All my FAVOURITES!!!!!! Almost ate until I vomitted. Really!

Hope I dont fall asleep tml!!!!

Tata~ Till then…..

My last paper for the 3 years of my nursing course on wednesday. So happy it is over. Muhaha! I am free.!!!!!! I am free!!! 

Went to TTSH recruitment talk. And fill in a application form. Think they gonna ask us to go for interview soon. I wanted to work at SGH, but got this feeling that they are not in need of nurses. Never mind, I will worry about all these things when I get my results.

Want to enjoy myself before PRCP start, which is on next monday. 6 weeks of non-stop attachment with no pay and somemore night shift. Oh gosh!

Speaking of night shift, I dunno if I should feel scared or excited. Cus there are rumours that say: When PRCP students are on 2 night shifts, something will happen on one of the night shift. I dont know if it is true. Just rumours.

*fingers cross* Not true. Not true

Went to chalet with Fel, Serene and Ying after our exam on wednesday. I slept for like only 2 hours the night before. So tired! Edmund also came along, but didnt stay for the night. We went to NTUC to buy the food for bbq, the squid were super uber nice. with the chilli. Shitake mushroom also uber nice.

We had to start our BBQ late as it was raining. Started at 8 and ended at ten plus. After our BBQ ended, we bathed and decided to go to Fishermen Village. To think the walk from the chalet to Fishermen Village was so damn far. The road was also so freaking dark. I was so damn scared. Nearly cried. Haha! JK~

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Went to buy my wallet on friday and meet up with Jasmine and Neo. After, Neo went to meet William to watch Mr Bean’s holiday.

We ended up at the Balcony’s Bar for drinks. My first time there, a tag too expensive. But I love you Lychee Martini. Nice. Will go there again soon. With Pik Pik and LPN.

 Went to Sentosa Yesterday. Will post the pics up soon. Enjoy myself there. It has been such a long time I am there with my friends. We went to try out the Skyride and Luge. It was fun. And there were lots of guavas there.

As a student nurse, of course. Haha! U think as patient meh!! Finally completed my attachment there.

2 weeks = ten days (excluding sat & sun) = 80 hours. Kinda of got used to the patients there and mentally-ill patients are not so scary as we think they are. We should try to accept them in the society, they really seem normal. Do not stereotype them as ‘mad’ or ’siao’. That is not a very kind word to use.  Do not ostracized!!

When they do not have relapse, they are just like normal people talking to you, just a tag too talkative. Haha! They are cute sometimes. On the first day when we are in the ward, I was practically staying very close to the walls. (just as our lecturer predicted.)

I am posted in a long-stayed ward. Some patients stay up to 30 years, schizophrenia cant be cured completely. More or less, the patients are more stable there rather than acute wards. But they can be aggressive sometimes.

As the time goes and as we got to know more about the patients, we felt more comfortable around the patients. No more sticking to the walls. More talking and interaction with the patients.

This attachment really make me understand these mentally-ill patients more and see more of their behaviour. hmm…. they are kind of noisy, love to shout, have some funny habits. I am sure you have heard of these mentally-ill patients love to put funny things into their mouth. Perhaps the food is always not enough for them.

Examples I have seen are: faeces, newspaper, paper, orange skin, and so on….. Some even pick up food from the rubbish bin or floor to eat.

And they dont get diarrhea. Great, isnt it? It is difficult to stop them from eating these funny things. They get angry!! If you see a patient eating faeces, would you dare stop him?

Would you dare stop him and get smeared with faeces on your hands or uniform? No, right. I dont think so anyone would do that.

I truly enjoy my stay in IMH. The patients can make you laugh, when they do/say funny things. Make you angry when they do irritating things. I will view IMH and mentally-ill patients in a different light from now onwards. Public should really learn to accept them in the society. They should not be isolated.

Hope all the patients will be in good health forever, happy forever. No more relapses. Will be accepted in the society!! Family will start to accept them and visit them or bring them home!!! Thanks for making our stay “pleasant” !!!

Thanks to Mr. Buddy Tan too, our clinical instructor!!! Thanks for all the tolerance and guidance you have given us. It had been a great time learning from.

Thanks to all the staff at IMH, Wd xxA!!!!

Finally it is friday again. I haven been looking forward to it, I bet my friends are too. Cus we are all stuck at IMH. We are dying to have a holiday or go back to school. Just not to be at IMH. Although the posting seems to be relaxing, not much patient care. Not much stress. But the shouting and screaming from the patients can be a bit taxing on our minds. And the non-stopping chating with you. Sometimes they really scare us a bit.

CNY is here!! We actually decorated the ward for the patients. Cus our patients are long-stayed. hmmm…. I wonder if they know how to apprepriate.

Some of the patients actually do gardening inside. Eg. watering the plants, pulling out the weeds. It gives them a chance to breathe in fresh air!!! But not all the patients can go. & It is only once per week.

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I am going to Phuket tml to spend CNY there. Actually I kind of hope to be in Singapore during CNY, but my father insists on going. So…. no choice

    Bye for now~