At a point… I feel lost.

Goodbye and hope you are feeling much more better over there. If the accessibility of medical services is better, maybe you will be still around. Ambulance refuse to send u to the hospital- may they be cursed.

I feel lost. The only thing I could do is  to help mummy book bus tickets.

I am sorry I couldn’t see you after you were sick, I should have taken time off work. The last time I saw you was during CNY. You were still doing well. I am sorry now for not attending the funeral.

Life is really unpredictable.

Though we were not really close, I hope you are relief from all the pain you were suffering from.

Take Care.

We do love and care about you.

Imperfections…

No questions asked.

Are we followers? Or we are too lazy to fight for ourselves?

Why are we always listening to him? He just assumes whatever he do is the best for us. Have he ever bother to ask for our opinions? I am angry. A-N-G-R-Y.

Don’t assume can? Doesn’t mean a piece of cheesecake is in front of me, means I am eating it!!!!!!!!!! I know cheesecakes are fattening. I guess I know more about healthy diet than u are.

You are not being fair to anyone.. I can’t believe that the whole family kept quiet about it. That’s what I hate about Asian families. They are not open about their feelings. They don’t talk. Ya.. I know I am an Asian too. But at least, I am more open about my feelings.

I can’t tell you off.. cus you are way too senior than me. I don’t want my father to hate me or break the “traditional” way in our family.

I am not happy. I don’t know about others. If we are eating out together and sharing the cost. I don’t see the reason why you are the only one that get to choose the dishes and the venue!!

If I am paying, I guess I have a choice isn’t it? I do appreciate that I don’t need to rake my brains over what to have for dinner. I hate it when all the dishes are ordered to your liking.

Have you not once thought about other people? You are too arrogant and selfish.

We are all too weak to fight!!!

I won’t forget the way you treated my family. Although I was little, I remembered. You must also remember how my father rendered help to YOU!

I won’t forget how you bullied my mum and me. Never will I.

I don’t scream at you out of “respect”!!

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I am missing my Mcdreamy a lot… Haha!

Where are you?

I am scared of losing you. A lot.

Wedding Bells ringing in Malacca~

 Can you hear it?? Lols.

Went to Malacca last weekend to attend my couz’s wedding. And I was one of the jie-mei. Oh gosh, the brothers all have a sharp tongue!!

We stayed at the legendary A’famosa Resort from friday to sunday. My parents and uncle who went to the resort 2 weeks before us was totally praising that place.

“It has a private swimming pool.”

“Bungalow style”

“It has three rooms in the bungalow, can contain 2-3 families.”

“It is in the outskirts.” (My uncles love holidays @ ulu places.)

Wa… sounds great! I was totally looking forward to it. Private swimming pool leh. Sounds so grand. When we reach the resort after a long drive (1/2 hr)  from the entrance, I went to have a look at the pool. 

The size of the pool is quite acceptable, but it looks kind of dirty to me with dead insects in it. Gosh! What a big turnoff. So what if it is private.

The toilet was worse. I am quite a fussy person when it comes to toilet in public/hotels. Just the toilet bowl looks dirty without anyone using them. And the floor too. The bedsheets are also dirty!!!!! with lipstick and foundation stain. Dont they change?

And we can wash our feet in the morning when we brush our teeth. The freaking tap is leaking. So… our feet got all wet just from brushing teeth!!

Apart from all these, the facilities there are either spoilt or trying to rip the poor tourists off. Seriously the resort is in need of new management, housekeeping team and some renovation sounds good too.

Okok! Now more on the wedding.

Morning of the wedding:

The “Jie Mei” with mother of the bride. Taking some photos before the groom arrives.

 

The Groom and his brothers are here. Poor things. Cant be let into the house. Couz-in-law was so nervous and the brothers still refuse to give in to our requests. Lols. We even shut the door & ask them to go home.

Bride super nervous while the negogiation still going on.

Finally the groom was let in after 3 ang paos, sabo and singing of a song. After kissing of the bride, everyone was lost at what to do. Everyone looks happy.

Me & couz. Before going to the groom’s house. Pretty~ Pretty~

lols. I think i look like a bride too. When is my turn??

Camwhoring in our freetime.

 

A last photo before we leave for the groom’s house.

To be continued……

P.S. I forgot to take photos at the couz-in-law house. Haha~

Vexed…

Are there times when u actually feel u wanna live away from your parents? Sometimes, they are just so irritating. I know people always say: you must be grateful to your parents blah… blah… blah…

Ya… I know must be grateful!! But when will the nagging stop? I am already 20 yrs old. I am also very stressed up in school loh. They think they are the only ones that are busy or stress with their jobs?

My mum is so grouchy & she doesnt realised. Keep making crude & sacastic remarks at us. I also got mood swings loh. I am super duper angry. ok?

I am so stressed already loh. Presentation next week, & nothing is done. Fine. Let’s all fail the module. And I cant even watch the tv at home peacefully. I am dying of suffocation!!!!!

When can I find the peace & quietness again? I want to escape….. where to? I dont know. Often there is no one that I can really share my woes with. Is there someone that truly understand?