That. Crazy. Girl.

Like what a friend of mine have said, why do I care so much. If this person means nothing to me, no matter what this person say should not affect me!

It is kind ofaffecting right now. My mind just keep replaying the whole incident. argh!

Sorry if I made u angry or said something inappropriate. I was not trying to be funny.That was the first thing that came to my mind. After some reflection. Yea, it is kind of stupid to say that!

I am not that knowledgeable, I do make a effort to learn. I did not lie to you. I really did try my best.

I don’t know whether you have any expectations from me. I apologise if I do not meet them. But that is who I am.

Still want to express my gratitude. I learnt something today. And I hope you will nv read this, which I think you will not.

Let’s wait to see how things turn out.

Till I get enough sleep,
the girl who is still trying her best.

How do we ever learn to stop hurting ourselves?

We fall. We pick ourselves up. We learn a lesson. Maybe we won’t fall the next time.

But…

When someone repeatedly hurts us. Why don’t we learn a lesson and stop it from happening?

We can’t. We yearn to see that someone so badly even if  it means we may never recover from all these hurting.

We are all crazy people. Very crazy.

We can only hope for the hurting to stop.

It seems we have no control what so ever over our own hearts. Condition can change without warning. Romance can make the heart pound just like panic can. And panic can make it stop cold in your chest. It’s no wonder doctors spend so much time to keep the heart stable, to keep it slow, steady, regular to stop the heart from pounding out of your chest from the dread of something terrible or the anticipation or something else entirely.

– Meredith Grey. Grey’s Anatomy

Something to blog before I sleep. I had enough of everything, want to take a rest.

today, was as usual, talking nonsense with Farhah. Came up with one thing that I hate a lot:

Girls that are unfaithful.

I can’t understand why u go out with another guy(who is wooing u!!!) when your boyfriend is waiting for u.

I hate girls with 2 or more boyfriends. And I hate the saying “I am not married, so I can have lots of choices.” Hello!! If you cant stay loyal or faithful, don’t even bother looking for a potential husband.

You go flirting around with all the guys around and even go on dates with them, when your boyfriend is alive and kicking.

Do you have a problem? Or you have too much testosterone????

Okay.. I too hate guys who are unfaithful!!!!!! But seriously we can’t blame them too much, cus their brain are always in their pants!!! But girls????

Sigh. Really crazy… I mean me.

It irks me to see unfaithful girls around in my life.

A very early good morning to myself.. I am still not sleeping despite the fact I have to wake up a few hours later.

I seriously and sincerely hope that I will have a great day ahead without getting angry. But I already got the warning that my day may sucks.

I wanted to blog cus I cannot sleep. I also believe I will have some difficulties waking up later. Lol.

I am crazy.

Relationship is a funny thing. No matter how close two friends can be, once you guys stop seeing each other, you tend to forget the other party.

Sometimes, you try your best to forget tt someone. You will find that you are still thinking of tt someone at the end of the day.  

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I hope in 2009 my wishes will come true..

esp the part where i dont wish to envy other people. And I wanna go back to school.

Good Night, ShinYee.

Been a long long time since i written something.. As usual la, work is busy..

with the crazy anount of workload..

It is the time of the year again. Cold and wet weathers, grey sky…. The whole quiet thing set in. You can only hear the sounds of thunder or rain.

Make me sit down to make a conclusion of my 2008…

Have I matured? Have I become a scheming nurse? Have I learned to stand up for myself?

Most important: Have I decide what I want for my future- Certainly no…Seriously.

And I still don’t have a boyfriend… lol. Not that funny, maybe.

The conclusion is: I seriously did not achieved anything… Haha. It’s ok. Will set resolutions for 2009 and work towards them..

Resolutions for 2009 are still in the making….

Of course, I will be looking forward to 2009.. Hee

Met up with Simin just now… went to Japanese Gourmet Town in Vivo city. No pictue, next time.

Curry soup- tasty. lots of veggie. (3 chillies was just nice)

Okonomiyaki- average. – needs less batter and more cabbage.

Pumpkin tempura- absolutely tasty!!! will go back for this..

She bought me Hello Kitty stuff!!!! so exciting… I bought her a novel… Our outing ended with a chocolate ice-cream and white chocolate mocha!!! And ghostly encounters…

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One of my patients pass away yesterday… Felt a bit sad. Tend to get sad when patients pass away cus they are quite long term. And we even become friends with them or their family…

hmmm… do we care enough for the patients?  Are we doing enough?

Or do the surgeons care enough? Or surgeons are only interested to cut people open???

It is sad… Very sad…

P.S. Craving for some thai food now!!!

P.S.S wants to read “the birthday present”. Someone, pls buy for me!!!

X.O.X.O
ShinYee
Till I get some thai food…