That. Crazy. Girl.

I have not blog for a very long time due to laziness. Lol.

I am back in NYP, doing my advance diploma in orthopaedic. I am into the 3rd week of school, still enjoying and coping. Stress already set in with all the research and psychosocial assignments. Still searching for articles.. =((

Being in school make me have more time to rest my feet and catch up on the movies I missed..Very happy!!

At times, there is still unhappiness. I don’t know there are so many selfish people around us. It is not that I don’t want to share. Do u see the problem is: in the first place, u didn’t even offer to share!!! I seriously want not to talk to u anymore…

Of course, I kind of miss work.. I am used to working!! hahaha.. School is good too, getting to know all my classmates and gossiping, complaining about our hospitals and the drs!!!! We compared our institutions and discovered that sgh is slighty better.

… going to catch a movie, Coraline.

I was going thru the posts from last time. I realised my life has changed. Last time I always blog about happy things and outings with my friends.

Nowadays are just rantings from work… There is lots of things I miss from my polytechnic life!!

I wish I could go back to school…

I miss cycling with my friends. ( and of cus the occasional bumping into celebrities. LOL.)

I miss the occasional chalet and bqq though we have our differences. – let’s have one this year again!

I miss going orchard withpik sun!! I miss Sentosa..

I miss that phuket trip with Jasmine and Kuan Yong. (can we go again in nov?)

I miss the crazy and cold hong kong trip with Jasmine and SzeMin.

I miss me and SzeMin running to class when we took a late 159. -she cant run now anymore.. too pregnant!

I miss the swimming sessions we always go for in between lessons and the tons of suntan oil I applied.

I miss Jasmine’s cursing sessions whenever she is driving and we are late for class.

I miss Jasmine’s irritating voice on the morning waking me up to go eat wanton mee. (I have not eat tt wanton mee for ages.)

I miss the serious and irritated faces SzeMin, Pik Sun and PeiNingput on whenever we are discussing about ICAs. (They do get very violent sometimes.. haha)

I miss sleeping in the NYP library. I miss talking loudly in the discussion room and getting hushed by the librarian.

I miss going to PeiNing house to sleep and watch movies!!

I miss going to Ikea with PeiNing and Pik Sun. I always end up with lots of rubbish!! (screams: HOTDOGS AND MEATBALLS!!!)

I miss going north canteen, south canteen, FJ, macdonalds with my classmates!!!!!!

I miss talking, sleeping, eating macdonalds inside the lecture theatre.

I miss the lab lessons and always guessing who is having tt smelly feet!! Till this day, I still have no idea.

I miss that very cold air-conditioner of the computer lab.

erm.. I do not miss the cadaver in the bio lab..

I miss going to that particular toilet near the library with my friends.-the clean and nice one.

The list still goes on. There is really a lot of things I miss!!!!! Esp all my friends!!

I am sure there is a lot things I miss out. If I do remember them, I will write them down again.

To be continued…

My last paper for the 3 years of my nursing course on wednesday. So happy it is over. Muhaha! I am free.!!!!!! I am free!!! 

Went to TTSH recruitment talk. And fill in a application form. Think they gonna ask us to go for interview soon. I wanted to work at SGH, but got this feeling that they are not in need of nurses. Never mind, I will worry about all these things when I get my results.

Want to enjoy myself before PRCP start, which is on next monday. 6 weeks of non-stop attachment with no pay and somemore night shift. Oh gosh!

Speaking of night shift, I dunno if I should feel scared or excited. Cus there are rumours that say: When PRCP students are on 2 night shifts, something will happen on one of the night shift. I dont know if it is true. Just rumours.

*fingers cross* Not true. Not true

Went to chalet with Fel, Serene and Ying after our exam on wednesday. I slept for like only 2 hours the night before. So tired! Edmund also came along, but didnt stay for the night. We went to NTUC to buy the food for bbq, the squid were super uber nice. with the chilli. Shitake mushroom also uber nice.

We had to start our BBQ late as it was raining. Started at 8 and ended at ten plus. After our BBQ ended, we bathed and decided to go to Fishermen Village. To think the walk from the chalet to Fishermen Village was so damn far. The road was also so freaking dark. I was so damn scared. Nearly cried. Haha! JK~

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Went to buy my wallet on friday and meet up with Jasmine and Neo. After, Neo went to meet William to watch Mr Bean’s holiday.

We ended up at the Balcony’s Bar for drinks. My first time there, a tag too expensive. But I love you Lychee Martini. Nice. Will go there again soon. With Pik Pik and LPN.

 Went to Sentosa Yesterday. Will post the pics up soon. Enjoy myself there. It has been such a long time I am there with my friends. We went to try out the Skyride and Luge. It was fun. And there were lots of guavas there.

It is the last 2 days in school. But I consider wednesday the last day of school, cus it is the last day I see HIM in school. I still had not picked up me courage to tell him. I dont know what to do but see him walk away.

I am graduating from my Nursing course soon. Now whenever I fill in any forms my occupation will be student nurse. I am finally a working adult. Although I may not enjoy working but I can supoort myself and not depend for my parents anymore. At 20 years old and still asking money from your parents seems a bit awkard for me. I dont know about others.

What make me most sad is, I will be separated from my friends. Although we still can contact with each other, but we are moving on. We are starting to work, not go to another school. Everyone will be busy with work, boyfriends and so on. I am the only one without boyfriend, so I guess I will be the most free among all my friends.

I hate the feeling of not seeing HIM again. Although he may not reprociate my feelings, but I still feel happy to see him every week. *Bliss* I know our fate ends here today.

Can anyone like tell me what to do? I have no idea how to handle this situation now. I feel he may think I am too childish if I tell him how I feel. I will not know how to handle if he reject me in the face. Maybe cry for 3 days 3 nights? I dont know!!!

Can anyone tell me what to do !!!!!!!!!!!

A sudden urge to blog something after ending my chat with Jasmine. Cus I am too stress about the presentation tml. Like have to put on thick skin so as to do it. As I say the lecturer is demanding. And stupid me is still wondering what should I wear tml. I should just go to bed!!!!

We are presenting on a proposal tml. So everyone thought that we should be more formal. But it is a heahache of what to wear loh. I dun have any formal clothings since I am in nursing, and not business.

Anyway our presentation went well without Qing Lei today. Haha~ It still feels kind of weird that he is not around. I am not complaining I am missing him. Haha! Went to visit him at his house today. Felt that we were kind of disturbing their roommates as we were quite noisy. Cant control our noise level when lots of people. So paiseh!!

After tml presentation, I will be only left with one ICA. And yes…. I will be doing it with my original group, which make me more happy. The happy chemicals are all in my brain now. haha!

With all these happy chemicals, endorphins, I am sure I wont have depression!!

Ciao~  

Gonna present 2 ICAs next week. But I guess one of them will be postpone. Cus our dear group member/friend in injured. Qing Lei had dislocated his ankle while playing basketball in school on friday. But not to worry, he had been discharge from hospital yesterday.

He keeps insisting he wants to go to school on monday to do presentation, with his clutches. He should really rest at home loh. We already informed the lecturer, hope it can be postponed. Cus Qing lei is our main character in the presentation. Haha!

Qing Lei, Hope you have a speedy recovery!!!! And stop insisting you wanna come to schoool!!

There is another presentation on tuesday. The lecturer is kind of demanding and i am getting a headache from doing it. So much amendments to make. And it is sort of not everyone is helping. Yes… I am complaining. Cus I am angry.

Never mind, this is the last ICA. I still prefer working with my original group.

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I think my friends really detested me. They are all trying to pack me off to any available guy! I am so sad. Am i so detestable or you all want me to find happiness? It is not like i dun wanna date, just no available nice guy. HAha!

Hey! It is wednesday again. I LOVE wednesdays!! But I am down with flu today, but it is not going to stop me from being happy. Hoho!

Why I love wednesdays????

Because: I can go to orchard. School is off early. And it means half a week is gone. Yeah~

Of course I get to see him. And the most difficult ICA is over today!! We started off not knowing what to do for our presentation. keep bumping into walls. Well… we worked hard & asked tons of questions. Even miss our meals and sleep. Haha! Exaggerating, isnt it? But this is the truth loh.

But the end-product was cool lah… Lecturer and fellow classmates were shocked!! I am happy.

This morning started off a bit rough. My flu getting worse, lost my script for presentation, couldnt wake up and miss the 1st lecture. Hmph… Ms Kathleenis one of my fav. lecturers & I miss it. :’( Try my very best next week.

Went to collect my V3x today.. hmm, they only took 2 days to repair my phone. Somehow I feel that my phone like only go there for daycare.  Hope it wont give me anymore problem…. 

Jasmine’s birthday at KimGary’s restaurant.

Me & The frenchtoast…

My new hairstyle with szemin~

How’s my new hairstyle? Not very clear in this pix. Cus a little dark. I heard a guy on MRT telling her GF to cut the Chinadoll fringe and he is pointing at me. It is so damn loud loh! I heard him.

And I make sure he knows that I can heard his comment. Some of my friends cant recognise me today. Haha! They say I look like doll. *blush* I get them to write evidence, if no one believes…

My neighbour even ask me if I was going on a Hot date today. How I wish I had a Hot date? Szeminsay she is my hotdate!! Erm… no loh.

My definition of a Hot date:

1. Tanned (golden one)
2. Tall
3. Humorous (aren’t funny guys such a charm?)
4. Muscular, Lean
5. Wear shades

In my dreams, do guys like this exists in the reality? Heex! If yes… all kanna snatch off le lah! Okok… I will be contented if the the guys loves me. & I hope to have everyone blessings.

Ciao~

I seems to be waiting for wednesday every week. Dont ask me why. It is dumb.

Yes… it is him. I am sure lots of pple know now. I see him the MOST on wednesday. Is he a zombie? Why keep popping out?

1st encounter: Outside the lecture theatre. He will be walking pass, don’t know going where. & I will be at the benches waiting for my lecture to start. And of course, I see him. Three times he walk pass, ok?

It was three times cus I skip the lecture. Not because to see him ok? The lecturer is damn damn boring!!! & he dare to forget there is lecture today. OMG~ Have u ever seen lecturer forget there is a lecture? I mean that is his job, isnt it?

Lecturers = Conduct lectures. Correct!!?!!

Erm… I seems to be drifting away. Back to the topic. 2nd encounter: His tutorial is right after mine. And we are using the same tutorial room. How fate make fun of people, right? Last week, as I didnt know he is outside and my “best” friend nv inform me. When I was walking out, I nearly bump into him loh. My eyes nearly bulge out as I was so shocked!!!! Then I quickly turn my eyes away and walk off. I shouldnt had stayed in the room so long. but still happy to see him…. Psss…. my HR was so fast that I could even feel it loh.

I am sorry but i cant even look at someone I like directly into his eyes loh. Cus I am unsure of his feelings. how to? I am shy! Luckily I did know how to handle the situation today. Totally walk off innocently. Haha! It may not be the best way to handle it. But for now, I can only do this.

I am damn bloody tired. Ciao~

P.S. a lecturer told us we must speak english like ang mohs. without all those singlish… so I added damn & bloody in this post. (cus i notice ang mohs speak like tt) Will try harder next time.

But not anymore. But still angry with my parents. ok…. I know I shouldn’t be. Anyway just for a night. I cant sleep now as I took a nap in the evening. So here I am again. Wow! I having so much to blog now. My writing ability seems to be back!!!

I was surfing the net & came across my secondary school teacher, Mrs Ess blog. Reading her blog reminds me of being in her class. Her article is really educational (did i mention, she is a teacher?) and really intriguing. A must read. Somehow after reading her blog, some knots in my heart start to loosen. I begin to see things from different perspective.

She is a teacher that I am grateful to. Due to her, I managed to pass my o’levels humanities. I was totally uninterested and cant be bothered with geography, until she started teaching our class. My map reading sucks. I guess she was the one that made our class be interested in geography again. Cus we find our previous teachers quite boring.

Anyway…. She make a interesting teacher. Hope everything go best for her in the future. (7th child?)

Speaking of teachers… NYP make real “good” choices in hiring lecturers. I went for lecture today & saw another lecturer walking in instead of the previous one. My 1st thought were: Oh great! At least it is not so boring and naggy.

Never trust your 1st thought. Gosh! The moment she opens her mouth, we knew we were dead for that hour. She was harping on a slide for 1/2 hour, which could be completed in 5 mins. & she she speaks with such a funny accent.

Really! Dont tell me NYP hires a lecturer that cant speak properly? We really have difficulty understanding her lecture. Almosteveryone were doing their own things. Including me. But I was doing my ICA.

psss…. Pik sun beside me was practically sleeping away!!!! See… even a hardworking student is sleeping. This proves that the lecture is real bored & cant be understand.

From my reliable sources (Jasmine), I found out the lecturer is from China. That explains the funny accent.

Too much nurses from China = China lecturers. I am discriminating against them, but the way they speak is really difficult to understand. Pls…. I really think NP took away lots of great lecturers from NYP, SHS. Even my own mentor told me, if she can drive, she will teach in NP too. Haix~ That’s life, I guess.

These people from China always say: You all(Singaporeans) are discriminating against us, thinking we are all here to find rich sugar daddies. We actually come here to learn a skill. Did you watch The Peak on channel 8? They too potray a china woman snatching people’s husband, being call a slut. Even the media thinks so. So, stop the crap about learning a skill. Just admit your motive, ok?

I am sure all of us had heard of Singaporean man being cheated of money by China women. Men are just stupid and they think with their lower part of their body. And these men cant keep their pants zipped. Sometimes, even the China woman they choose to fuck is damn ugly loh. Uglier than their wife. Due to their unzipped pants, their wallet become unzipped too. & in 3-6 months(est.), their whole bank account together with the mistress would be gone FOREVER. Serves them right.

What are they left with? Their wives & joint account(if that exists). Provided their wives take them back. Hope they dont.

Maybe a small portion of them come here to learn a skill. But what about the majority? Dont tell me those girls on the streets of geylang and massage parlours are fake. Yea… they came to learn a skill. A skill call seduction.

Personally I have seen how they even try to “persuade” (or is it cheat?!?) a old jobless uncle to treat them to just a ice-cream, which they could afford. With a ice-cream, the old jobless uncle was able to hug her waist and even touch her butt. How cheap is that? Is your butt worth only that ice-cream? Hmm… Maybe we just have different upbringing and values.  

I am not in any position to judge them. This is just how I really feel about them.